Matt 20:20,21 Then came to him the mother of Zebedee's children with her sons, worshipping him, and desiring a certain thing of him. And he said unto her, What wilt thou? She saith unto him, Grant that these my two sons may sit, the one on thy right hand, and the other on the left, in thy kingdom.
As I was reading this verse this morning, I was reminded of the struggle of the human soul between the god of this world and the God of heaven. The verse says that James and John's mother worshipped Jesus AND desired of Him a certain thing. That thing she desired was a position of power in the kingdom of God.
Like many of us, the mother of Zebedee's children was drawn to the love and beauty of the Son of God. She witnessed elements of the relationship that Christ had with His Father and was drawn to that. But at the same time she was tempted to try and manipulate Christ to obtain something for self; to obtain power, position and favour.
I can relate to the mother of James and John. I confess that I have done the same as she. In past years I have been touched by the sweetness of the character of Jesus and the beautiful love of the Father for His Son, but I also desired a place of power; to have my achievements recognised and acknowledged. As Paul says I knew Christ in a worldly way. 2 Cor 5:16 (NIV)
This welding of two conflicting kingdoms was perfectly reflected in my worship of the Trinity. The Trinity projects a metaphor of the loving relationship of Father and Son while at a deeper level expressing a system of value based in internal power and position. My carnal heart gravitated to this deeper value system of independent and absolute power carefully shrouded in a mantle of interdependence and love.
I am thankful that Elijah came to me and said - How long will you halt between these two opposing opinions? How long will you offend God with your secret desires for self? Will you accept all of the Son and carry your cross with Him? Will you face the rejection that He faced and drink of the cup that He had to drink to the very bottom?
Thank you Father for sending Elijah and bringing me closer to your most precious Son. How sweet He is! I worship Him with relish and desire while being set free from those carnal desires to exalt self in the form of a false god.
Elijah is calling all of us today, How long halt ye between two opinions?